angelsarms07

Why do I bother trying anymore? I feel like I'm just a fall back plan to you. It's almost like, if your other plans fall through, you'll just call on me because 'I'll be there' and I hate it.
If you don't want me, if you don't want to make the effort to actually be my best friend, then stop telling me that you are. Stop telling me what you think I want to hear. Stop lying to me.

STOP! STOP! STOP!

You're starting to make me hate you. You make me feel like I'm going crazy. Other people think I'm crazy. You make me feel as though things have to go your way or not at all. It's not fair for you to have all the control. It's not fair that everything has to go by your standards, and your feelings.

What about me? Why don't you act like you care about me as much as you say you do? You're breaking my heart. You're breaking my heart, and I can't stop it.

I probably should just delete this since I NEVER use it. But whatevs.

I'm stuck in Westland for the summer. Well, at least for another 5 weeks.
I can't find a job. Shitty.
I'm taking a math class. Shittier.
I miss hanging out with my friends. Shittiest.

I love hanging out with my bff Cody. :) Complete opposite of shitty.

This summer is by far a better one than last, emotionally.

I still think about summer 07. Mostly because it's the last time I felt young and free with not responsibilities. And I had my Aunt, Garrison, and Derek. Best summer of my life thus far.

Have you ever had one of those days where it seems like pretty much nothing goes right? Yeah, that's kinda how my day was today.

We had crapes in french class today, and I almost forgot the batter which would've sucked. And everyone would've been mad at me which would not have been good. But luckily I remembered and my mom made the batter last night at like 11.

Then I realized my paper was due today. My 60 point paper which I still had to revise. Yeah. So I revised it in first hour. Wasn't able to get to the library til lunch. And then bloody Masse's class was in the computer lab so the librarian nazis wouldn't let anyone go on the computers. So it was a wasted pass. Got there the last 20 minutes of 5th hour. Typed my paper. Was pretty late to 6th hour. Got yelled at by my teacher. Then I had to stay for after school orchestra. Absolutely beautiful day.....not.

I'm just overly tired. No matter how much sleep I get, it's never enough.

Valentine's day was pretty good. Mike bought me a rose and a balloon. And he's taking me out to dinner and a movie on Friday. It will be fun. :-)

Saturday I'm going out to breakfast with him. Then I'm headin' over to guard practice. Then I'm going to clean a house. Then I'm going to Mara's to play with her new puppies!!!! I'm too excited.

Sunday is mine and Mike's 4 months. So we're gonna hang out and do something for that.

Another busy weekend. But it's gonna be ten tons 'o' fun. :-P

So I decided I was tired of my other layout. And I joined a community. And I liked this layout. So yeah. lol Just a lame update about my layout. I think it's cute.

Soooooooooooooooo
I'm in the computer lab right now. So I can do research on my paper that I have to write. We have to analyze a tv show. I picked Boy Meets World, but now I'm thinking about maybe doing Gilmore Girls. I'm really not sure.


Any suggestions???
I'm sooo bored! I feel all antsy and stuff. I was tired but then I got awake once I got in 6th hour.


Today is after school Orchestra. YUCK! But I have to go otherwise I lose points. Lame...
Then I think I'm going to my grandma's tonight for dinner, like usual.


This week is going by really slow. I just want it to be Friday so I can hang out with my boy. :-)
OH! I almost forgot about the highlight of my day. =)
It was in gym, cuz I got to talk to my beautiful Becky basically all hour. It was a really good talk. I love that girl.
Anyways...that's about it for my day today.
Tomorrow is practice. It's gonna suck. I hate practice. I wish I would've done winterguard instead. Like, I'm not even kidding. I miss it so much. But it's too late to do anything about it now.

EDIT:
I didn't do anything to change my layout..but yet, it's changed. Very strange.

Tomorrow is my birthday!!!!!!!!


I'm too freakin' excited.
The Big 1-7.
I've decided what my first rated R movie is gonna be. =P
Brokeback Mountain.
I love Jake Gyllenhaal!
I'm gonna go with my sister.
It will be great.

Tomorrow Mike is taking me to the mall so I can pick out my birthday present.
I'm very excited to hang out with him.
Then I'm going to my friend Winrose's 16th birthday party.
Then I'm gonna try and go to Jessy's party.

Busy weekend. But it's gonna be hella fun. =P :-)

Last week wasn't too bad. My new classes are pretty good. Gym isn't that horrible, but it's still my least favorite class. Expository writing is pretty cool; I'm pretty excited about that class.

Thursday was mine and Mike's 3 month. It's going so good. I'm so happy! =) He's amazing.

Yesterday at school wasn't too bad. I'm worried about Mara cuz something's going on with her.
I hung out with Mike last night. We rented a movie and made popcorn. It was fun. Then we fell asleep. =P

Today is the day I get to stay home and clean. Then I'm going to the movies with my mom, Sara, and my grandma. Then it's the Italian Feast. =P Not too excited about that, but Becky said she'd be my serving partner, so I'm looking forward to that. =P =)

10 Firsts

first best friend: Ian Kirwan
first screen name: swaldon1
first pet: Riley
first piercing: ears
first crush: Ian, I think
first record: I can't remember
first car: 1988 S-15 High Sierra GMC truck
first love: I can't remember loving anyone before Mike
first games console: nintendo
first favourite colour: blue

9 Lasts

last alcoholic beverage: smirnoff ice
last car ride: home from Mike's house
last movie i saw: Tristan and Isolde
last phone call made/received: Mike
last CD/MP3 played: Walk the Line soundtrack
last bubble bath: First week of Christmas break
last time you cried: Last night
last person you spoke to on messenger: Mike, or Jenna, or Seanzie
last game you played: Mario Party 2!

8 Have You Evers?

have you ever dated one of your best friends: pretty close
have you ever been arrested: no.
have you ever skinny dipped: yes
have you ever been on tv: yes
have you ever kissed someone, and then regretted it: no
have you ever had a sex dream about someone: of course
have you ever wandered around your house in the nude: fo sho

7 Things You Are Wearing
[1] jeans
[2] shirt
[3] hoodie
[4] hair tie
[5] socks
[6] underwear
[7] bra

6 Things You Have Done Today

[1] got new tires on my car
[2] went online
[3] ate lunch with Mike
[4] hung out with Mike
[5] ate dinner
[6] showered

5 Favorite Things

[1] Mike
[2] music
[3] movies
[4] hanging out
[5] eating

4 People You Can Tell Anything

[1] Mike
[2] Natalie
[3] Jenna
[4] Mara

3 Things To Do Before You Die

[1] Visit all the states
[2] Go to Europe
[3] Bunjee jump in New Zealand

2 Bands You Will Never Stop Loving

[1] Queen
[2] Aerosmith

1 Thing You Regret

[1] not listening to my friends when I should have

Yesterday had to of been the worst day of my life thus far.
First of all, my tire blew on the expressway while I was driving home. Then, after about an hour, my dad came and put the spare on. THEN, while I went to go drive, I ran out of gas. So we had to go buy a gas can, fill it with gas and go back to my car to put the gas in it. I finally got home. Got ready and went to a party. Bad stuff there. It was the worst. I cried cuz I was scared/tired.
Mike's mom came and picked me and him up and I stayed the night over there. Mike held me while I cried. I was very tired.
She took me to get my car this morning and I went back to Mike's house. We went to sleep for a couple hours, cuz she took us at like 7 something this morning. It was nice.
I came home and then me and my dad went up to Belle Tire and got new tires put on my car.
Today is going much better today so far. Let's hope it stays that way.

It is absolutely gorgeous outside! I drove home with my window half way down and wasn't cold at all! It was awesome.
I miss the warm weather. I can't wait for spring/summer. It's gonna be so much fun!
I want to find something to do so I can be outside today...



Oh yeah..
Finals went good today. In Public Speaking we just sat there for about 20 minutes at the end and talked and stuff. I don't think I failed math, but, I'm not sure if I did well...=/...I just want to pass it. If I pass, I will be happy.

Tomorrow is Friday! I'm going to CiCi's after school with everyone. It will be fun. Hopefully I will be able to hang out with Mike again. And then after Marissa and Ryan get off work I'm going with them to the movies. I'm excited. I miss hanging out with them.

Well, first day of finals. I must say it was pretty easy. I had orchestra and french. French took me a while, but I'm sure I did good. I usually do good on my French final.
After school I hung out with Mike. We went and got lunch and then just chilled at his house. I must say it was an A-mazing day. I took about a two hour nap there. =) One of the hours spent sleeping in his arms. It was the absolute best.
Went to my grandma's for dinner, like I do every Wednesday.
Then I went and studied for my math final with Jenna. It was fun. We didn't do a whole lot of studying. But it was fun. We went and got Baskin Robbins.
Came home and just chilled. Got stuff ready for tomorrow.
Tomorrow I have my public speaking final and math final. Publick speaking I will just sit there and listen to people do their speeches cuz I already gave mine. It will be fun. Math, I'm very very scared. I'm gonna fail. I've never ever failed a final. But I just don't get it. =/
Tomorrow afternoon I have to hang out with my mom. Cuz she said so. So, no hanging with my boy. =( Shall be a boring day.

I've been listening to this song almost non-stop for the past 2 days. I'm not exactly sure what it is about it that makes me "connect" to it. But I'm inlove with this song.



Hey there Delilah
What's it like in new York city
I'm a thousand miles away
but girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Time square cant shine as bright as you
I swear its true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice its my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh its what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday ill pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh its what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time that we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And ill be making history like I do
You know its all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh its what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
What you do to me

It's been a while since I last updated so I figured it's about time.
I just got back from South Carolina last night at around 2:30. It was so much fun! I loved it. It had been a while since I had seen my uncle so it was nice visiting him.
Today was my aunt and uncle's 50th wedding anniversary party thing. It wasn't too bad. It was nice getting to see some of the people that I don't get to see that often.

My grandpa got a couple of e-mails from our cousin in Tennessee informing us about Hawk. The tumor is one of the worst kind of cancers. He's going through radiation and what not to see if that will help. It is inoperable. So, we need all the prayers we can get.

Tonight I'm planning on partying. =D Just kidding. I'm going to be hanging with my boo. That will be the best way to bring in the new year.
I haven't really made an New Year's Resolutions. I always make them, but then I never follow through with them. So, maybe if I don't make one, then it won't really matter. Yeah....so, no new year's resolution for me; as of right now at least.

Happy New Year!!!